I choose life
When Chris and I started dating, one of the first things we talked about was what our visions were. If this relationship was going to work, they had to marry up because God wouldn’t be calling us to be a team together if the individual calls on our lives weren’t compatible.
My vision, or the verse I’ve run with for as long as I can remember is John 10:10, “I came so that they may have life and have it abundantly (or to the full)”. I want 1) to be living life to the full in Christ myself and 2) to enable others to do so. Turned out this was Chris’s heart too. Awesome.
Why bring this up now?
Life has been difficult in our household the last few months. It’s had lots of ups – I had a great placement and got offered a job for after graduation, we had a really fun Christmas with Chris’s family, we were able to go on holiday for the first time since our honeymoon. It’s also had a rather large and continuous down – Chris got ill again.
Pretty much exactly a year ago, Chris got completely healed of ME. ME is a condition that is massively debilitating and little understood. It basically means you are tired all the time, your body doesn’t cope with things well and it’s very hard to enjoy life to the full. It sucks. But he got healed! And it was great! For the first time in years, his head was completely clear and his body didn’t limit him. I suddenly had a husband who smiled and laughed ALL the time and who could actually do things when he got back from uni other than collapse on the sofa!
Then in October, he started feeling ill. So we prayed. And we went to the doctors. We even ended up at A&E and slowly over the months we’ve got a diagnosis – something solid to pray against. But in the meantime, he’s been in a lot of pain. And been tired. And actually able to do less than he could with ME!
Thanks for the honesty Abbey, but what’s your point?
The picture above is from a calendar I ordered at the beginning of the year. Each month has a different scripture. My birthday is in March. What scripture just happens to be assigned to March? You got it, John 10:10.
I laughed when I saw this. I could almost hear God giggling, reminding me He cares about the small things, even my calendar. But I knew He was also reminding me that He didn’t just come so that we could live, but so that we could have life in abundance, in all its fullness. And that abundant life is His gift to us.
I’m not going to lie, I’ve not felt like I’ve been living life to the full over the last few months. In fact, I’ve struggled. Struggled to look after Chris, help him keep up with uni despite him being too ill to attend, get him to appointments, keep the flat clean, cook, get to worship practice, get to life group, try to be at church on time all whilst being on placement (full time job + essay and portfolio) before Christmas and being back at uni myself with a dissertation to write since. It’s hard work.
But does it have to be?
God’s promise is life in abundance. He says His grace is sufficient every day (2 Corinthians 12:9). He says He supplies all we need each day for life and godliness (2 Peter 1:3). In fact, the same spirit that raised Jesus from the dead is today living in me (Romans 8:11).
God’s intention in saving us from death and sin was that we then live a life lavished with every spiritual blessing in heavenly places (Ephesians 1:3), not be limited by whatever circumstances come up.
With WHBCdaily, we’re speaking a load of fantastic scriptures and truths over our lives. It’s good to be reminded that we have a new identity. It’s also good to remember that we’re no longer bound by the way things work in the natural. The amount of sleep you get no longer has to be proportional to how much energy you have – He is your supply, His Spirit your energy. Sickness can no longer have a grip, its power has been broken. We may still have to walk out the fullness of the healing, but it doesn’t have to limit us the way it does other people – we live in grace and health.
So as always, I have a choice – believe the promises and act on them, or try to be wonder woman and do it all myself. Do I live in His rest or call out to Him just as I’m burning out?
I haven’t got it quite right yet, I’m still learning to live out of His rest, His abundant life. But I do know, the more I rely on Him, the easier everything else will get. I can spend all day questioning why Chris isn’t better yet, or I can trust that God is always working for the good of those who love Him (Romans 8:28) and that despite the circumstances we can enjoy abundant life.
So today I choose life.